362...

In three days I will have officially been alone for one year. as of today- 362 days have passed since Dave come home and told me he didn't want to be married anymore. So much has happened in these past 12 months it really is hard to take it all in. I personally cannot believe it has nearly been a year. I feel as if I've been robbed of an entire year of my life. In my mind I feel it should be January. Here are a few of the major events/ happenings that have taken place in the past 362 days....

• Dave Left
• Grandma Wilson Passed away
• Dave became a great uncle
• Eva quit Dance after a few horrible foot surgerys :(
• Elena turned 2
• Carter turned 5
• I quit eating/sleeping
• I was served divorce papers
• We survived the holidays
• Jan 3rd 2013 the divorce was finalized
• I got an iphone
• I cut my hair short
• Jan 10? I had contractors look at my BSMT to give me a bid on installing a 2nd bathroom so we wouldn't have to move.
• Jan 30 AM  the contractors brought me a bid for the proposed renovation. That night I was so discouraged I didn't sleep at all.
• I repainted/ redecorated my room with a little help from my friends
• I don't remember much else about January.
• February 2nd AM I prayed and cried because I knew there was no way I could possibly come up with the means to make it happen even though I so desperately need/wanted it to
• Feb 2 The kids and I took a hammer to one of the huge cement walls. It crumbled and I felt better.
• Feb 7th I felt I should accept the bid in faith that our heavenly Father would provide and if I would just do everything in my power to move forward so I called and told them I would accept the bid and was ready to move forward whenever they were available.
• Mid-late February  it snowed and the contractors came to work on my home!(I was their 'inside' job)
• I performed at Frazier hall with Kirby's Comedy troupe- so scary and fun...
• Jax turned 11
• March 5,6,&7 With the help of my neighbors and my ward (scouts, High priests, EQ and many other gracious volunteers) we removed 6 12-18 inch cement walls. Opening the way for a splendid new beginning.
• I made many more new friends
• I got asked on a date...I said no
• I skywalked
• the car broke down- radiator replaced
• I took the kids to My wonderful Cousin Becky's home in St. George for Spring Break. Loved it!
• I texted.
• I played Scrabble...ALOT
• the BSMT got framed
• I got asked out on a date...I went. I couldn't even eat dinner and shook like a leaf the entire time. so terrifying and intimidating and strange!
• Little Eva Turned 8!!!
• Eva got baptized
• Eva got braces
• All the kids took swimming lessons
• The microwave and Dishwasher had to be replaced
• The fuel pump on the car had to be replaced.
• Eva had a huge cut full of stitches in her head
• Krista got home from her Mish...
• Summer was soooooo fun!
• We worked everyday on the BSMT
• I started eating again...and sleeping at least 3-4 hrs a night (up from 0-1)
• Dave graduated with his masters degree in counseling! Great work Dave:) 
• June- I got to be an aunt again.
• BSMT got Drywalled
• We had to move the water main (huge trench in the yard!)
• BSMT Got plumbed
• Egresss window cut out!
• Ginger (the kids' cat)  disappeared for 11 days and we thought she was gone for good :(
• she came back!
• I went  to a Jamberry Nails Conference in Salt Lake and loved it!
• I went to a cabin in palisades
• I turned 33
• Farrell turned 92
• The girls got an adorable owl tree painted on their wall
• I LOVED me some RETAIL THERAPY!
• I graduated from real therapy ...
• I sewed Elle's binki to a stuffed dog.so she wouldn't lose it as much
• the bsmt got textured:)
• I killed the garden
• We started Laughing again!
• We went to 2 family reunions
• we built a FORT in the back yard
• We got a pool for cheap from friends!
• We played outside tons
• Mommers had to move to the cabin bc of mold in her house.
• I painted the BSMT and tiled the laundry and bathroom floors with help from amazing family and friends
• Aug 1 we got carpet installed in the BSMT!!!
• a week and a half later the BSMT flooded :(
• another few days later it flooded again:'( we had to tear up the carpet and remove the pad
• Kids started K, 3rd, and 5th grades
• Babies told me she isn't allowed to be called 'babies' anymore cuz she's big ;'(
• Elle got potty trained
• I got released from cub master of the cub scouts after 4 years
• I got called as activity days leader
• Jax played Tackle Football for the first time!
• Eva started tumbling and Cheer class
• I refinished furniture for the girls' rooms.
• Carter became the star of his soccer team (he's scored every goal except 2 so far this season)
• I quit Diet Coke
• I worked on quickbooks /accounting and payroll ( haha figured I best add that in here before I'm done)
• I repainted the front door trim and all the window panes
• My windshield got smashed to bits... and got fixed an untimely amt of time later
• we got three flat tires all needing replaced!
• Eva got her braces off!
• three days later she lost her retainer.
• I've hired/fired like 5 front office secretaries ( I might have lost count bc it was truly ridiculous!)
• The furnace died so we borrowed some space heaters and we're getting a new furnace next week (yikes!)
• yesterday I painted Jaxsons room (the last room in the house left untouched...)
• the kids and I have studied and  memorized multiple scriptures and we've nearly read the book of Mormon all the way through again.
• we've learned faith, been on the receiving end of countless tender mercies and generous blessings! too many to count.

• Thankfully 362 days genuinely makes a big difference and I'm so grateful to all those who have helped lift us along the way. My heart is full. I didn't think we could ever actually 'feel good' again- but I dare say we are on our way. It has definitely been a journey but I'm beginning to believe we just might make it. I know we will. I have a testimony that The Lord really does hear and answer prayers. He has been truly mindful of our every need.