bah hum bug!

today was one of those days when somethings in the air making all the kids and everything CRAZY! I sooooo wanted to throw something or someone threw a wall! But alas it is nearly over and finals are next week so then dave will be around and I won't have to be a widow/single mom any more and hopefully I'll be able to run away somewhere ( at least for a night and just be a person by myself for a while!)
I hate days like this where I lose my cool at the kids, somedays I wonder WHY WHY WHY???? it's not that hard just do it please, stop hitting/hurting/teasing etc. It is so funny how it all builds up and lack of sleep never helps. Someday I will sleep through the night again and that might really be fun. . .don't really remember that. . . as far as I'm concerned sleep's over-rated and apparently I'm doing ok thus far. . .or am I? Maybe that's part of the problem. :) I know a huge part of my problem is that our house is still not finished and I am in it 24/7 and can't do a thing about it because I either don't have the $ or the know how to do it myself. I can't wait for Dave to be done with school and to NEVER EVER EVER have to live in a fixer-upper, unfinished house again. I never thought I could hate something that I actually love and am thankful for. . . but I really hate "projects" these days. I think alot of my pentup frustration is that Dave is gone from 7:30am until 10 or 11 pm and I am hereall day with the kids alone. . . and it's freezing outside so we stay inside alot and we are quickly outgrowing the "finished" portion of our house. I can't wait to get the basement less scary so we can play down there!
What a lovely rant session?!?! sheesh kind of a complainer . . . I guess I would probably vent all these things to dave usually but he can't listen to all this right now he's got to stay focused and it's just a bad day anyway everythig is typically fine, we are very blessed!